Moving TIme is Soon Approaching!

Oh boy! I am so happy kind a tired, but happy.
So where has this year gone? That's what I wanna know! I cannot believe we are already in the fourth semester, just one more quarter till graduation..tear tear! It will be so sad moving away from everybody! Then I will have to wait until the ten year reunion to see people. I cant wait to see where people end up. I know some will be in jail, some will be extremely successful and others...well i dont know about them. I hope that everybody succeds in life except for the select few who have made mine miserable...you can just be not so succesful. I hope that the people who were treated like crap by the "preps" end up rubbing their success in those peoples faces. It would be ironic but hilarious!

Oh Boy

I cannot belive that I was called a kindergartner today! Psssh just becuase i hate to be the bigger person! So what. I hate always having to tell people how they make me feel, why can't people confront me? Uh people can be so silly.
Oh so here is the latest scoop on that whole "him" thing, today, and yesterday too, people have been telling me that "he" misses me! How special! All i want is our friendship back and to make sweet love...just kidding that is horrible that is not how i roll. Anywho I have to live up this whole being a high schooler thing as long as i can because soon i will be moving on and have to act semi mature...psssh whatever. I wish things could go back to the way they were. I miss those times so much he could always make me laugh and feel comfortable being stupid. AH! Hopefully we can get over this in the next two weeks... i think it can happen just as long as that stupid whore isn't around. Wow that was mean.
Oh and another update on that other "thing" from the other blog...I am so over it now...that person is dead to me..sorry i gave ya a chance..i am cutting the artery..or however she used that analogy..i am not too good with those.
Well i have to get some sorta sleep now so i can deal with him tommorow...ha ha aha..i am such a loser...but i love it.

So yesterday...

So yesterday was so funny.
KT and I took a roadtrip down to Brainerd to visit my Grandparents. It was so fun we were real tourists, stopping at the big fish in Garrison. We got there and of course my grandma has a feast made....well I guess it wasn't really that much but still.Grandmas always have a huge feast prepared whenever you go and visit them. You could never go hungry. Then we left their house and ventured in the huge town that is Brainerd. Of course we got lost and I called my mom and she was giving me direction but made me even more lost..ugh. So then I kinda ignored her and went my own way and we ended up at Kohls..which was our destination. So i bought the huge frame that my Grandma wanted, then we ventured home. We didn't know if we were on the right road to get back home so I stopped got gas and asked for directions. The lady was like well here is a map it is kinda confusing so you better pay attention closely. So we got the directions and found out that all we had to do was turn left out of the driveway then we were back on our way. It was not confusing at all i think that lady might of been stupid or something. So we got back on our way and we were chatting then we drove through Deerwood so I had to stop and take a picture with the huge deer since we took one with the big fish earlier. It was funny because we stopped just for this picture at ten at night.

Hot Mama Altos Unite

I am a hot mama alto! Yay me! I think that is so funny how that is what Stubbs calls us.
Anywho....this is gonna sound so dumb but..... today at lunch there were some fools who decided that they were so much better than the rest of the world and cut in the lunch line. I was so mad so I yelled at them in my hot mama alto voice to go to the back of the line and they listened! It was hilarious! He was so embaressed to...ahh it still cracks me up. I regulate the lunch line one punk at a time................see I told you, that was so high school.
Lets see what else happened to me..oh I was at M&H and there was this brown beat up car in front of me that decided to fill up their tank then just drive away! It was so sad...especially since gas was 2.50 a gallon and they got away with like fifty or fourty dollars worth...people are so mean..how could you do that..why do you have a car if you cant even pay for it........do they not relize that that is a major fine! I hope they get caught!
So I am looking forward to April! I am going to be traveling all over the place. First a road trip to New York, (stopping at all the places in between) then right when I get back I will be going to Wisconson for a college visit, then when I get back I have to watch my cousins, then I leave for Arizona for "college visits". So the whole monthI will be living out of a suitcase. It is gonna be awesome..what am I gonna wear?
Oh I know i may have said that I was over "him" but I am not. Why is he so darn special taking up my thoughts? Jeesh I know he is a major flirt and it would never work out but still it just wouldn't work out. Tear Tear..I NEED to move on..maybe to that hottie from choir...Ha Ha...yeah that would work out so well since most of the males in that choir's egos are so inflamed.

ohh fudgesickles and tunes

I really love fudgesickles! Ha ha they are so darn good!
So I am just chilling here reading some crap on the bird flu (I think I have it I have been clucking lately..j/k) I am researching for a project. It is so fun.
I am also listening to a C.D I burned from Karen. It is so darn sweet! Very mellow but great.
So yeah lately I have been opening up my feelings to other people a lot and it is so weird since I normally keep everything inside. It feels kind of good to talk but it also opens up old wounds too....I don't know what to feel. I guess I have really only talked to three or four people about stuff so it isn't that much.
Right now however I am feeling preeeetty good and nobody better mess it up for me since it has been a while since I have felt happy.
Is is really crazy that when somebody told me that "he" was sad that I wasn't talking to him I was really happy? Am I evil? Oh dear something else to look forward to.
So does anybody even read these lil' blurbs that I write? I don't care but I am curious. Maybe I am too boring to even keep someone's attention. Oh well. I guess if I really wanted to get some attention I could tell all the secrets I know but that would be waaaaaaaaaaay to mean. That is not how i roll.
So I am really looking forward to going and visting Alverno! It will just be fun to see my future home for four years. I don't know how i am going to handle that. I mean being away from my little puparoo Chloe! How depressing! Lately though there are some people who have abondoned me and who I won't really miss. Pssh whatever to y'all..Ha ha I think that is so funny how I will randomly change my voice into an accent.
Boys are so stupid! They are so dumb they don't even know what they want. They say that girls are flirty! Ha i know a couple of guys who are reallly big flirts.
Anywho... I gotta go and do other things thanks for reading.

well you will have to read

MEOW!!! HA HA HA HA!
I cannot belive how crazy I feel!
Oh and that little other thing how I completly avoided saying something about how pissed off I was to somebody... but hey, whatever, I am never sad or hurt by anything that anyone ever says to me or that anyone ever does. I am alway happy! Ha ha. I love how like(ok now i guess i am a valley girl) I have been "Oh I am so gonna talk about it the next time i have a chance!" But noooo. Stupid me!!! Fine I'll just say it now: You make me angry...garrr! You probably dont know who I am talking about but whatever.....you can figure it out. If you talk to me I have been ranting about it forever..well I guess not forever..just like a couple days...ha ...yeah you! Lol.
Um I don't even know who you are anymore..nobody does..we're scared in our crocs'...ha ha...ah I am so confusing I don't even remember what is going on....ok then. Two blogs in one night woo! I am crazy..wow ok sorry for making people confused. Just try and decipher...k-do0g knows what I mean. oh boy.
k night! luv ya too!

Something to think about

"oooh ooh witchy woman see how high she fliiiies!"
So today was fun! I got to encounter a lot of witches. Ha ha yeah anyways today people were being really evil and were making me mad but i got over it. I took a nap and i am good now.
So isn't it funny how girls will ask you something like "Can I have xyz?" and they won't back down until they get it. Lately I have been noticing this. Like a girl asked me to do something and I said no then she was like begging me and I was like: "I thought I was being asked so I don't have to do it if i dont want to. It wasn't a command." Then i started thinking, and I, a lot of the times, would do the same thing. It is so weird how hypocritical i can be. Later on though i will look back and be like oh snap I do the same thing. So I guess what I am saying is think before you critizise someone because you may relize that you do the same thing...you just may not relize it.

We made it to state!

So the boy's hockey team made it to state, that is so sweet! It has been like fifteen years or somethin. We won against Roseau, then we beat Hill Murray, then last night we played Cretin and lost 0 to 7. That is ok though..we still made second! That is so cool. I just got back from the cities not too long ago and i feel really sick. I was yelling so much that i really did make myself sick. ha ha. I was down there for all three of the games, i left on thursday, with Erin. We had so much fun except for the last night when we both got sick but you know how i roll it is all good.
Now once i got home i have to unpack all my crap i have to clean my room, do the dishes, do the laundry, do all my math and english homework, fill out scholarships, file my taxes, and i have to fill out all kinds of stuff for Alverno....all by tommorow! That is when my parents said i have to have it done by..or i can't drive. So i dont care and i am not gonna do it fuck them i dont even know what to do for some of this stuff. I have too many fuckin questions.

whoa i feel really weird right now

Wow! right now I feel so weird! I a m really dizzy and i feel sick. I have no idea why i am like shakin'. I really feel like crap right now and i have been treated like it lately too. Who do people think they are..pssh whatever i am no toy that you can bring out and "play with" whenever you find it best. Right now i am really overwhelmed, i know i have so many things i need to do but i just cant get motivated to do them. I have so much homework to make-up, scholarships to fill out, job applications to complete, college apps, i have about a jazillion tests i need to prepare for, plus there is all kinds of stuff i am expected to do at home, oh and then of course i have to trry and spend time with people so they dont all hate me...it is really overwhelming. I do relize that it isnt as bad as it could be but still it is frustrating. It just gets even worse when something else (new and exciting..or not so much) is thrown in there. I wish i could say that i was looking forward to it being over soon but i know it wont i know i will always have stuff like this to do. I wont really even have a break in the summer since i am going to get my NA. So there goes three weeks of fun. Oh then my mom told me that i am going to have to get three jobs this summer since i have so many things to pay off. Life is just fabulous. People also are great especially when they start to ignore you but then... when nobody is around they wanna be all close and intamate. So am i just supposed to forget that you were all over someone else then when they leave you are there..pshh whatever. I am so tired of crap like that but sadly i cant let go.