Sentimental Heart- She and Him

I am a living contradiction.
I wonder if I will ever reach the point of a phoenix.
I hear the disapproval of my peers.
I see the chains weighing me down.
I want to find a peaceful equilibrium.
I am a living contradiction.

I pretend I am confident and content.
I feel like a sham.
I touch my material possessions letting them weigh my hands down.
I worry they will become me.
I cry feeling plagued with doubt.
I am a living contradiction.

I understand Rome wasn’t built in a day.
I say the best is yet to come.
I dream of my potential future; A happy family in a stable home.
I try to perform my best.
I hope I can find the strength to jump my hurdles.
I am a living contradiction.
I will be better.