I don't really have time to fully write a blog, but here are a couple things I have been thinking about. It's random....
This October my lease expires and as a house, my roomates and I had to sit down and talk. At first L was the only one to walk away pissed off, now I am becoming frustrated feeling like the only rational adult in the house. I couldn't believe that what I thought was going to be a calm house meeting turned into a big fight with me stuck in the middle trying to calm down and rationalize both crying sides.
Speaking of the house, H is beginning to concern me with her excessive smoking and drinking. I guess I am just worried that she spends more time doing things that are destructive to herself than things that are beneficial. Several times I have gotten phonecalls from her crying and freaking out about how shady her friends have been, I really want to be straight up and say that's what you get for surrounding yourself with drunken potheads. I guess I am just worried about her because I really don't want to see anything bad happen but it's hard to stop when you come home from work at 2 in the am and see your drunk-off-her-ass-stoned roomie lying on the floor.
Continuing with house issues, L is really starting to frustrate me with her stubborness. She complains about different things but when I come up with solutions she immediatly shugs them off saying there is no way they will work. I just want to scream at her "HOW DO YOU EXPECT IT TO WORK IF YOU DON'T TRY!!!", instead I bite my toungue. Although men can be messy as hell, I think at this point I would rather live with a house full of guys who aren't going to start fights over stupid shit.
Although things have been tough, I am finding the positives. I figure that a new optimistic outlook is going to be the key to happiness at this point. Suprisingly, it has worked out. I have woken up happy for weeks and it is the greatest feeling. I am so over crying over spilled milk.
The semester is about to start and I am getting really excited! I can't wait to start teaching again and see a roomfull of potential superstars smiling up at me.
So this Monday was a first, I had to do something frightning that I thought I wouldn't have to deal with for years. Luckily things went my way and I don't have to suffer from that drunken mistake.
Recently my lovely job decided to get rid of me but now I am starting up with something small on the side and I am really excited.
Oh! I am so proud of myself for reading more. This sounds silly but its a big accomplishment.
Being a random person, I decided I wanted to go to the East coast in the near future and when I texted J about it she agreed to come along. I love my that I have wonderful friends who are willing to come along on my adventures.
This summer has been a real eye-opener as to who is truely by my side and I have been happy with the results. Sadly there was a two week period where I was in a depression slump where all I did was sleep and go to work. Not much else seemed important. Even though I was a miserable person to be around, the people I needed most pushed down those walls and pulled me out of the slump.
I am greatfull for the friends and family I have that make life worth living and help make every page in my book more interesting. They have helped me grow as a beautiful, confident, independant woman. HUZZAH.
