Bullshit

Well what an interesting time I have been having lately. People are getting kind of ridiculous. I feel as though I have lost some of the people I really had cared about due to several different things. Too often I depend on people then something happens and I loose them oh well it is a part of life. It really hurts when people stab you in the back.

Communication

I really love my communications class! Today we had some good semi-discussions in class. These really got me thinking about how messed up the world can be and how it can be a vicious circle the world can be. When I got back from this class I had an awesome conversation with V about how the media has such a great affect on people. So basically I was venting about how ridiculous it is that women are supposed to care about every little imperfection with their body. Then once women change these things they get ridiculed for how they are too perfect! W.T.G?!?!?!? This made me think about how you may try and do something to help someone in one way or another, whether it is through actions or words, but somehow it comes back and bites you in the ass later on…..does this make sense? Now more than before, I have been working on listening more and talking less so that I can try and further understand people in order to help them out. This was a decision I made over winter break as part of a "resolution" for the year. So I try and space myself from people so I am not to overwhelm them by talking about myself or putting my problems on others. So I am not going to lie it has already been broken but I am only human; but hey, at least I am making the effort. Other people will go through their lives without changing a thing, staying closed minded and stubborn the whole way through without thinking about others but I don't understand where that will get you, especially in this day and age. It is hard to try and change yourself for the better but it is important in my mind. I think we all try and change who we are a little over time but we still keep the main components to stay real to ourselves.
I am really glad that I moved away from home. I think the move helped me to shape who I am and to learn more about myself. I have met some awesome people who have helped me out and unexpectedly been there for me. (When I say unexpectedly I mean that I never thought I could depend on people I thought I was the only person I could depend on. Last year if I could have seen how things would turn out as they currently are I don't think I would believe it! Moving out of Rapids was good for me to become more open minded and understanding. I think I have gained the ability to see both sides of situations instead of being so selfish and thinking it was always other people who were wrong in bad situations instead of realizing that there never is really one person who does something wrong. I still am stubborn and it takes me a while to realize when I am wrong but hey at least it is happening right?
So this blog is really scatter minded like my crazy thoughts but what is new? I just felt like writing about this to get it out there. BTW I would like to hear opinions cuz i am cool like that!